Where ever you may be may it be the best

Been a Year

2008-07-20T03:06:30Z

How do you put a year of your life in one entry? There is really no way of doing that. All I can say is I am happy where I am at now. I have a job that I love, I have friends who are amazing, I have a boyfriend who I care a lot about and I have my family who is still here for me. In the past year I have made many new friends some who I don't see much and some who I see all the time. I have a few things I am looking forward to:

- Going to Europe in the Fall
- Moving to Florida in Jan for three months for an internship at Big Cat Rescue.
- Having no plans

Sometimes I think the best moments are the unplanned ones. I learned that from someone who is very close to me. Just live you life without a wonder about what is next.

Today is my cats one year birthday. Happy Birthday Jade!

commonmanthy @ 2007-07-07T01:17:00

2007-07-07T06:28:39Z

It was about time for everything in my life to start getting better. I would have to say that my favorite times are just hanging out with my closest friends, drinking wine and talking all night. I'm sort of over the bar thing, the party thing, and everything else. Why can't I be happy? Today started off as a great day, working at my new job, still having time to take a bike ride to the beach, come back and do a haircut and a hair color, having the girls come over for some food and wine. Then it was off to a friends house for a party that hadn't started yet. I decided to join a few people that were going to a bar. Bad choice. The bar ended up being like a frat and fraternity house. I have never in my life hated a place more. I can no longer go to places like that in my life.

Why is it that the one thing that can make me happen I can't get. Today I found out that my cat I was going to adopt got adopted already. This makes me terribly sad. I was finally settled on my decision and ready to make him apart of my life. Lately I have been having this anger in me. An anger that I don't know where it came from. I need to get sleep tonight, because tomorrow I wont get any. 6:45am wake up call!

I wish I didn't take this job so I could leave sooner and be gone for longer. I just hope that sunday will make my bad nights a lot better.

In a few weeks a good friend of mine will be moving. This friend is taking an adventure. An adventure where stories can only be told from, and smiles can only be met. Taking this adventure is something that encounters courage, strength and confidence. Three personality traits that everyone should have. Someday I will make my own adventure and have my own stories.

Today will go on as the Day that never forgets

2007-06-20T00:23:24Z

My eyes can no longer be dry on this day. I can try and not think, but that will only push it aside. What I normally do. I can't. I would only hope for today to be lie, for such news to not be true. But, That's life. You come and live the many or not so many years you have on this earth. You can only hope that in those days you can complete what you had known you were here for.

Today my grandmothers cancer had turned to the worst. I will no longer think of the word "Spreading" anymore without wanting to curl into a ball and cry. All I can do is be hopeful. Hopeful for her heart to keep on pumping and her blood to keep on flowing, forever. They say that a Brain Tumor cannot be removed completely without damaging vital brain tissue. 33 percent of people who have Brain cancer survive. Please be apart of this 33 percent. I need you.

My Life and Its Meaning

2007-06-04T22:59:35Z

I don't do anything ever. This effects me badly. In the past two and a half weeks I have had three interviews. I must be bad at them or something to have no calls back. I'm hoping that the last interview I had will call me this week and say "Hey, we want you to work here. Come in today!" The thing is, I'm not sure I am ready to give up on everything else. I need a job, that is for certain. But, at the same time. If I get these movies this summer than I can do that and that only. The other job wont even fit at all in the schedule. Who says life decisions were easy!

Part of me wants to move somewhere in the fall. Somewhere new. Of course, for me to do that I need the money. So, My choices are these:

Get part-time job for all of summer and most likely not work on films. Move to europe in the fall for three months. Come back from that and pretty much start over where I left off, working on films for free.
or
Not take part-time job and work on movies this summer, getting little pay. Possibly have to move back home in the fall because of lack of money. Then in Jan find a roommate and move back to the city.

the things we love

2007-05-10T04:00:45Z

What I love:
-Working and being around cats
-Reading and learning about history
-Volunteering
-Doing great make-up applications
-Watching people who are happy and seeing what makes them happy
-Dancing(ballet)

All I would need is to share this with you.

What are your loves?

I guess it is true

2007-05-03T22:30:19Z

I guess people do get engaged without meeting the parents first. Congratulations Jason! I wish you the best of luck. After all you are practically family. I guess that means one of my many brothers is getting married.....

research

2007-04-19T05:35:52Z

Name movies you think that I should see. What good quality movies would you tell someone who has never seen a movie before in their life to see?

commonmanthy @ 2007-04-17T13:51:00

2007-04-17T18:50:03Z

I need to learn to share.
I need to learn to take.

the lives we choose

2007-04-13T23:18:19Z

You know sometimes we fall between the questions "Where am I going in life?" and "What do I want to do?" There are moments in life where all you can do it know that everything is the best and that you couldn't be happier. Then there are times where you know things could be better, but how to make the first move. I am stuck between the answers. Planning out your life is scary. As far as we know you only get one life, no matter what you believe there is no proof to anything. The belief of life after death, or of heaven and hell. These we can't know for sure are real.

I'm more of a scientific person than a believer. I guess some of us just need proof of why things are the way they are.

Freedom

2007-04-03T22:43:29Z

Lately I have been working long weekends for little money. Sometimes I think it is just easier to do things for free. I love doing volunteer work that for some reason I see myself offering my services for cheap all over the place. I volunteer at PAWS right now and I can't get enough of it. I want to do more animal work. I want to check in to doing dog walking over summer or dog/cat babysitting. I'm not sure how to get started though.

I have been hanging out with a certain someone a lot lately and for the first time in my life I can't get enough. I love that I still hang out with my friends all of the time as well. I love them all very much. I also realized today that I miss some of them. I want to go back and have a friends reunion. I love always having different people to hang with. Lets hope it happens.

The weather needs to stop sucking because I want to bring my bike down here and have some good fun in the sun. I can't wait to get tan and just try and do nothing(but really working all the time). I am applying at this store tomorrow, I know they are hiring and I hope I get the job really badly. If I don't I will no longer be living in Chicago starting august.

The plans

2007-03-12T00:28:03Z

All I seem to hear people talking about it wanting warm weather, wanting to ride bikes and for it to be summer. Well, I want the same. I wish the weather would stay this nice for awhile and then get better. On friday I leave to go to san francisco. I am so excited! I have never been to Cali before. I know I will fall in love. Lets just hope its not the type of love that will make me want to move there.

Friday was an amazing night. Thank you to everyone who came and shared the love of the 40's. I was surprised on the amount of people that dressed up, or tried. ha. You are all very cute. I will miss everyone for the five days I will be in san francisco. Go out and have a fun spring break!

I started listening to phoenix again today. That reminds me so much of summer......

Five more days!

money

2007-02-19T06:15:16Z

You know how money slows you down from doing what you really want. Well it is doing that for me. If it was up to me I would do the make-up job and the hair job for free. I wish it wasn't all about the money. That is what you look forward to, a pay check at the end of the two weeks so that you can waste half if not more on bills. I don't want to have a life where I wait for that pay check. Where I have to count on that check. Read "rich dad, poor dad". It will help you understand money and to get to that point where you don't have to sit there and wait for a pay check to help you out. I would like to see so much. Why does airfare have to be so much money? If everything was free in life would it make it easier though? I don't know.

The option to move or stay

2007-02-19T00:31:25Z

Do you ever get that feeling inside of you where you just want to get away. I know most people have gotten that feeling. I wouldn't really say that is where I am at right now. But, for some reason that is how I want to feel. I'm more at the stage of "I know what I want to do, But, how do I get there?". People ask themselves this question all the time. Its time for me to get up and to do that. I'm leaving for NYC on thursday and I am excited to see all of my friends and to be back in the city. But, apart of me is ok if for some reason I didn't end up going. I don't need a vacation right now, I feel like my life is one big vacation at the moment. I need to get down to business and to start working more and more. This is my goal for the next month. To keep on working.

Then after a few weeks of trying to get the work lined up for myself, I will then leave for San Francisco. I'm more excited about this because I love seeing new places. I have never been to California before and I must do the research and find out what are the best places to go to while I am there. If you know of great places to visit, eat at or dance at in San Francisco then please let me know.

Doing what you love

2007-02-13T01:02:05Z

For the past three day I have been working on set for an independent/student film called "Ends Runway". I would have to say that I have not had that much fun with over 30 people I didn't know well throughout my whole life. Every single one of those people were so kind, wonderful and beautiful. They were out there doing what they love just as much as I was. It made me realize what I really want to do in life and where I really want to go. To me its not about the money you make, or the pictures you take or the work that you have done, it is being out there and doing what you love in a way you love. It may be hard for me to explain what i'm really feeling on the inside but, someday I hope you get this feeling. The long hours do not matter to me, although I was on set for over 30 hours this weekend. It is all about doing what you love baby,

I also had an orientation for PAWS Chicago today. If you care for animals and want to help them out in any way, please sign up for an orientation and help out the animals of Chicago. They need as much help as we can give them. OR if you are not an animal lover, please help out in your communities with children, abuse, environment or anything that you are interested in. Just one helping hand can do so much.

You don't have to be alone to do the things you want, but sometimes other things might block the path. Make sure your head is clear before you get stuck in a situation that might change what you really want to do.

that thing

2007-02-09T04:35:48Z

You know that thing? The one where you don't notice it is there but it is. Sometimes I think that people don't see what is right in front of them. Or they don't think that they are so special to have this thing in their life. It takes more than a notice for you to push for it and to win.

Working on a Film all this weekend. I hope all goes well.

You get shitty days and good ones

2007-01-08T19:29:13Z

The other day my car was broken into. They took my car stereo with cd player, around 200 to 300 cd's and another small thing in my trunk. Also, in order for these criminals to get into my car they broken my back window. Thanks a lot! That really helps me out considering I am already low on cash flow. This is turning out to be a great move to Chicago and a wonderful start on the new year.

This is what living in NYC is all about

2006-11-30T03:20:15Z

Tonight lauren and myself went to go and try to see the lighting of the christmas tree at rockefeller. It was insanely crowded. But, I had a great time. Saw some people sing on the big screen. If You were there you know what I mean. I hope you enjoyed your night.

wonder weekends

2006-11-26T00:51:14Z

Tonight is a party for a good friend. For someone who not only treats me with great kindness but my whole family. I guess you could say he is already part of the family. We celebrate not only his birthday but also the collection of his beer bottles. Together we will all have a drink and make a toast out to one of the worlds wonderful people. Although much of the friends and family that will be with me tonight are just that, wonderful people. Coming home made me realize how much more I am looking forward to moving back. Its funny, I live two lives. I now must choose which life fits me better. Let give it a try with both.

Last night was another reminder of how much I care for the people in my life. Don't worry I will soon be returning into your lives for good, ha. I move back for good on December 21st. My sister and possibly aryka? are going to come and get me then take me back. I will enjoy that weekend and week the most. After the holidays I will be moving back to Chicago and living with Dale and my sister. I look forward to it all. Thank you to everyone that made my weekend fantastic, even though it is not yet over with.

I also look forward to a good friend of mine coming to visit me next weekend in NYC. If anyone happens to be in NYC during december please let me know and we shall get together.

I hope everyones thanksgiving went well.

starbucks

2006-10-15T18:30:43Z

The best part about living in a big city is when you can find time to be alone. Although there are many people around you, you feel like you are having time to be alone. I guess in most people's cases they don't want to be alone, but when you share a room with someone, alone time is worth every second you get. Even though I am sitting in a starbucks and surrounded by 100's of people walking up and down the streets, I still feel like I am alone. This may be a good thing for now, but perhaps in the near future I wont be alone. It is nice have this type of moment. Maybe I wish switch it up and go to the park down the street. This will be my plan and goal of living in new york city. To go alone and to discover new places to just do that, be alone. Also to soak in all of the moments and situations that are all around me. This is my plan, I will keep you updated.

happy times

2006-10-14T23:51:31Z

I found a great pair of jeans today, plus a sweater, plus a dress, = a day full of shopping secrets. Last night was a night of pop bands and beer. New friends were made, and getting to know acquaintances better. Then got a mean slice, which to my surprise was spicy. I am no good with that spicy food. The night ended with a nice long walk back to our apartment. I love my roommates and all of my new friends. But, i do miss all of my old friends. Tonight is a house party with a new friend named turner. Brooklyn here I come. Get in touch if you live out here, i am down for hangs.

new beginnings old times

2006-09-11T00:14:22Z

Friday night was a great night for me. I got to hang out with the girls for once, although joe was there. We went to a couple of bars. The first: if you are over 30 you are welcome. Only 25 people are allowed in since that is all that was there. The second: If you love button up collared shirts, you are in. If you like tequila you are also in. Oh how i let myself be fooled by the atm, when in fact it was all my fault. Damn account only having 18$ in it. Dale i owe you for swank frank, Which at the time was probably the best thing ever. My taste buds thank you.

After awhile you come to realize who are your true friends, so thank you to those of you who are. You know who you are.

wish..

2006-08-29T06:18:42Z

I wish I could go into hiding. I guess moving to nyc could work.

I am making my room sweet, at least in my eyes. Moving back home wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but it is only the end of day one.

Thanks to a few friends found some good new music.

Last night

2006-08-26T19:44:07Z

Last night was one of the happiest nights i have had all summer. There was nothing but laughs, smiles, hello's and kisses to remember. It started off by going to my sister, nick and shawns new apartment in wicker park. We taped two walls, we painted one. It was fun to paint although i can not say that i painted for very long. I was cut off by a lovely girl coming over. Her name is Dale. Dale and I went to walgreens for some drinks and quick needed supplies. Then back to the apartment for some beverages. More wonderful people showed up, shawn, emily, joe, john, matt and lindsay. It was a party itself and we didn't even know it. After awhile at the new household we all walked over to jeanae and matt's. On the way there we took some stops to talk to randoms. This is always a fun thing. Makes me love everyone. As we approach their apartment we can see the mounds of people outside. As we reach this mound i see a face i haven't seen in awhile. Of course being me and loving to give hugs that is the first thing i do. We all talk for a bit and then we head inside. Every corner i turned or every time i turned around i just kept seeing people i knew. Whether i had seen them the day before or not is two years it was still exciting to see all of them. The night went onto talks, hugs, drinks, bathroom breaks and dance.

When we decided it was time to leave, we went back to steph, nicks and shawns apartment. By this time everyone had left us and only Dale, harrison and myself were left. We grabbed our bags and left for my apartment (thinking it would be the last night in it). We ended up taking a detour to tuckers place and hanging on the back porch for an hour just talking. It was nice. A wonderful night needs a wonderful ending, and i got it. Hope your night was just as grand.

Moving on....

2006-08-21T17:18:32Z

I move back home this weekend. I am looking forward to it. But, I will miss waking up to the cities noises and running next to all of the buildings so close. I will be back there within good time, I hope. If you are going to be in the area then we should hang out, because if I can't get a job I will have much free time. After about a month of living at home I move to NYC. How exciting!

What I see makes me smile

2006-08-15T05:59:40Z

Today while doing my supposed to be usual run, I saw this lady about in her 60's or 70's running ahead of me. He feet looked swollen and that it hurt for her to run. I kept wondering what she was running at. First, I could only think, was she crazy? But, no of course not. That did not seem right. Then I thought, could she maybe just getting some exercise. But, this could not be because she was not wearing the proper attire. Then as I watched her run 10 feet ahead of me, I would see her raise her hand every second as if it seemed she was calling out to someone. As I kept my eyes on the scene. I figured out what she must be needing. Up ahead there was a bus that was stopped at the normal spot of pick up and drop offs. Before I could maybe do anything, I see a man, maybe in his early or late twenty's. He goes ahead and stops the bus for the lady, makes the bus driver get his attention and then lets her go on the bus without saying a word to her, just a smile. Although I could not see the lady's face I knew that she must have had just the smile to give back. This proves that a simple good gesture and smile is all that is needed to know that you care. This was an event that makes me love the people I am around and how kind we all can be sometimes. Thank you.

I have been listening to some wonderful songs lately. I realized how much that I love sheryl crow and the tv series roswell. Why did they have to cancel it. Of course it is always time for things to come to an end, this was just too early.